Waiting…

So my life consists of waiting these days.

Waiting to hear back about jobs, waiting for new job ads to be posted etc.

I guess in a way I should enjoy this time, enjoy having all the free time in the world but a part of me thinks it’s so unbelievably boring that I just wanna start working, preferably yesterday.

Then there’s also the whole money issue. I have money but I’m saving it for next months rent. So the whole money for food thing is a bit scarce but I trust God.

And I have plenty of cup-a-soup haha so I should be good.

But I’m really enjoying this time in my life though. I’m dirt poor but I have a roof over my head. Life is exciting, it’s fun starting out fresh and just to go with it!

People have for years always said “ohh that’s so brave of you” when I moved to Australia, alone. Or this time around, Sweden, alone. But I don’t really feel it’s a brave thing to do. It’s just moving.

The brave thing for me is the whole, trusting God that he will provide a job. But even that doesn’t really require bravery, just faith. And I am full of faith these days!

I absolutely 100% trust God that he will find the PERFECT job for me. So until I get that job, I guess this is a test in patience and faith.

Or maybe I’m just more adventurous than most people. I was 12 years old when I went overseas for the first time.

I was going to Florida where I would spend two weeks with Fjóla and her family. But they left a week before I did so 12 years old I jumped on a plane for the first time in my life and flew to Orlando. I spoke English but a 12 year old going through an International Airport alone is kinda crazy…

Thankfully the flight attendant realized half way through my flight that I was flying alone so they sort of escorted me through the airport but only through customs really…after that I just had to find my way. And I did with the help of airport personnel but it was no big deal for me.

I just thought it was so much fun. I was pumped to be in Florida and pumped that I got to speak English all the time.

After that I’ve traveled a bit but only twice have I actually traveled with a group of people. Never any family members, just friends. So from day one traveling has just been the next fun adventure. International airports are all the same. Except Bangkok, the new terminal that is… that one took me a while to figure out but once I did. Awesome! haha

So the point of all this rambling about traveling. I guess the attitude that you have and how you approach things, circumstances etc is really important. At 12 I chose to look at flying alone to Florida to be a very exciting and fun thing to do. Not a scary thing and I guess that has shaped the way I look at things a bit.

So moving to a new country where you don’t necessarily speak the language isn’t a scary thing. It’s a fun and exciting adventure and this time around I already have friends in the country. Not like Australia, though they came quickly.

But most important of all, I have God, a stronger faith in God. So while I have Him and hold on tight, everything else will work out in His time.

This post turned out to be a lot more serious than I intended but serious can be good too.

EDIT: Something I need to add. Though I’m super optimistic and think this is a fun & amazing adventure. That doesn’t mean that I haven’t had my moments of “was this a mistake?” “can I do this?” etc… of course I’ve been scared to do this but I overcame the fear by #1. Making the decision to go. #2 Actually going. #3 Putting all my trust in God.
When you first read what I wrote, it might sound like I’m totally chilled about all of this. Which I am for the most part but I do have my moments of fears/doubts etc…but I don’t let those moments control me or take over. Cause if I did. Then I would be back in Iceland.

Ok…just felt like I needed to add this.

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~ by stockholmadventures on February 10, 2010.